The unnoticed, every-day habits of obedience
are what make possible the large decisions of obedience. You may not aspire to
be obedient with your life on a grand scale if you are not obedient daily on a
small scale.
Obedience is a way of life that makes one much
more likely to succeed and far less concerned with success.
The way of obedience is fundamentally a creative
way. The word itself suggests stifling submission and a preoccupation with
rules, but the truth is just the opposite: to live obedient is to find each day
an adventure, each season of life a ? adorned with !’s.
One finds their true volition within the way of
obedience. In offering your volition to a superior volition, you find an
entirely new volition, purer and stronger, true and instinctive, part yours,
part God’s, an infallible compass that requires only periodic maintenance of
cleansing tears.
To dream is stifling. To be obedient is to
truly dream.
To be obedient is to laugh, like Abraham and
Sarah laughed, at the wonderful absurdity of promises and fulfillments well
beyond your capacity to affect.
To be obedient is to acknowledge a boundary to
your own understanding, which rather than being a compromise is rather a great
liberation. It may seem counter-intuitive, but the borders of obedience are the
most freeing experience I have ever had, for the borders of obedience are the
borders of the Promised Land of the Soul. And so as not to be ignorantly
disaffected, one will remember that the biblical Promised Land has both deserts
and gardens. Obedience is a crown, sometimes composed of thorns.
Obedience is less frequently an action and more
frequently a posture of rigorous self-inspection. The daily and silent rigor of
the posture of obedience is what gives one strength and surety on the day when
obedience at last commands movement.
The way of obedience draws on the best aspects
of the passive and active attitudes. Ultimately passive and responsive before
the universal Impulse, we find ourselves in concert with the ultimate Music, as
one who dances with a great dancer takes pleasure in being led, free of the
worries of initiation. At the same time, the obedient woman and obedient man is
an activist, because the one obeyed is an activist too. Jonah was disobedient
and ran from the people. Jesus was obedient and ran towards the people. We are
obedient not for isolation but for engagement, and any vows of abstention taken
in the name of obedience are on a deeper and more real level vows that free us
to action.
Obedience is a patient pleasure. In the same
way that the pleasure of good literature is not found in a good quote here and
a good quote there, but rather in the subtle beauty linking page to page and
passage to passage, so the pleasure of obedience is not to be found in a heroic
deed here or an enlightened moment there, but is to be found rather in a span
of days strung out on the single thread of saying yes to God’s yes and also yes
to God’s no.
One’s ability to obey is not dependent on their
level of education, how sound is their exegesis, or who their father is. One’s
ability to obey is dependent on one’s ability to pray.
Really enjoyed the read Ryan, it was challenging and evocative. Your point on dreams being stifling forced me to pause and reflect for a while. I wonder, can obedience be stifling at times too. My example would be Picasso, trained in classical art but only through his disobedience did his great works come to fruition.
ReplyDeletePicasso's category is different from the one I am referring to. He was stifled by accepted artistic theory. I am referring to the intuition of the universal Spirit. I believe that allegiance to the dictates of that spirit is the most daring and dreamy way to live... :) - Ryan, from a different computer
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